Sunday, November 23, 2014

Stepping Into Second Semester of Matriculation Program

It's official people. Tomorrow I will face my second semester in Matriculation program. Damn, time moves so fast.

       I've done packing my things. Hell, for these last two weeks, I actually live through my suitcase. I didn't remove them from my bag at all. *sigh* This is my life as a matriculation student.

        What else can I say about my miserable life now? Hurmm... First, I think my first semester went well, with a few minor hustles and one major incident which is so embarrassing that I don't even want to talk about it here. Other than that though, I hope this semester, my practicum won't be assigned by the same lecturers (other than my tutorial math lecturer who is a superb woman by the way and my tutorial chemistry lecturer who is a very kind and patient woman). Other than these two individuals, I want all of them change! Especially my physic laboratory lecturer who really embodies the spirit of Hitler. I just can't stand him. No no no.

        Anyhoo, that is all I could say for now since I have to leave and who knows when you'll hear something from me again. We'll see. On this chance, I just have to say, hope and pray for my best. Thank you for reading this. It means a lot to me.

         It's time for me to get back to reality and honestly, I hope this time reality embraces me with warmth. Until next time people. Bye.

Grateful for all I have,

Friday, November 21, 2014

Good Morning Everyone! Long Time No Talk.

Assalamua'laikum and good morning guys. It's been what, almost a month since I last posted something in here. Been busy and actually I wanted to avoid to feel. Whenever I wrote something here, I actually am allowing myself to reflect and think. And I am actually trying to avoid thinking, for a reason I cannot reveal just yet.

I am actually in my semester break for two weeks in which this period will about to end this Sunday. The day after tomorrow, I will return back to Matric. Time is really flying like a lightning.

Current news about me? Nothing much actually. Just can't wait to finish another semester in Matric. Then, it finally a university life for me.

In conjunction to this (which actually has nothing to do with university life), did you watch FIFTY SHADES OF GREY'S SECOND TRAILER? See what I did? Shouty capitals, like Ana used to say! It was, a-fucking-mazing. I love it and I can wait for February 13th. Mark my word, people. I am counting the seconds to that point. (Return back to my rumbling) Jamie Dornan, you are so freaking hot!! I like that 'Nice-knowing-you-email' which leads to 'is-this-nice-scene' which finally leads to that scene in the trailer where you see Dornan playing with ice with Ana. Woooooo... Insert melting here.

So far, I am living my life as 18 year-old college student. (Where did that come from?) It is only one month and a half to my 19th birthday. Really can't believe that I manage to stay alive this long. It's a miracle considering all the horrible episodes I had in the past.

During the short first semester I endured, I can probably count with one hand of the episodes I had. Luckily the episodes only last a day at most. I beat them down, you see and I freaking love myself of it. I learnt that when I got these episodes, I really do have to entertain the stupid bum-fuck ideas I had in my head. Just entertain myself, not executing it, okay? It actually made me feel better afterward. After I got through this hurdle, I also learnt that I needed to forget it as well. This is my second step to recovery. Everyone makes mistake and for someone like me, I did them repeatedly, with no sense of right or wrong. I only discovered them were mistakes when I stop and think about people around me and not think about myself, like I intended to do all the times. Yeah I know. I am no good girl, you know.

Now back to the agenda. Two weeks of semester break. Can you guess what I did during these two weeks?

If you guess, romance novels, then you're right! You just win one week trip to your own house, courtesy of Me!

Overall, in the span of two weeks, I've finished twelve individual books. How's that for desperate.

  1. Rule's Obsession by Lynda Chance
  2. Invitation by Christina Hoffman
  3. Remember Me by Lara Van Hulzen
  4. The Prize by Julie Garwood
  5. Pulled Under by Michelle Dalton
  6. A Shift in The Water by Patricia D. Eddy
  7. Score On Me by Melody Heck Gato
  8. One Night: Promised by Jodi Ellen Malpas
  9. Creed by Kristen Ashley
  10. Curse's Claim by Sam Crescent
  11. Raid by Kristen Ashley
  12. Pulse by Deborah Bladon

Anyhoo, I think that is all that I could say for now. Gotta take a nap for awhile here. Then, I'll post something again tonight. See ya.
Tired and not ready to go back to Matric,

Sunday, October 26, 2014

Okay, It's Official! I Am Mad.

Hey there guys. Long time no see. I've been busy. Like hell. Like seriously. Dude, I have learnt one thing since I'm in Matric. Like seriously, matriculation program is so not for those with fainted heart. Hell, I am this close *pinch hand* to quit this program. It's just too suffocating. Yes that's the word.

          Anyway, that is not what I want to say tonight. At 2:18 am. No, dear. That's not it. What I want to say is OUTLANDER!!!!!!!!

        Gosh, I know I am mad. I have PSPM like literally tomorrow and yet here I am blogging about some marvelous book I just finished this evening.

          *DEEP BREATH*


          I freaking love you Jamie Fraser!!!!!!!!!!!

          There. I've said it. God, that feel so good.

          I love ya Jamie. From the blood of my blood. From the bone of my bone. Honestly. Marry me please!!!

          Okay, shut up Lily!

          Alright, so there you have it. My ranting. About the Outlander series by Diana Gabaldon. I can't believe that I am among those people out there that have fallen with Outlander and Jamie. God, Jamie. I can't even spell his name here without having a stupid damn grin on my face. He is actually the main reason why I stopped studying for my chemistry just to post this stupid post. (Don't you dare call my Jamie, stupid!)

          Hell, what I can't even believe is that I willingly dragged myself out from my comfortable bed just to write this post out to the public. But I just can't help it. I need to write this down. Mainly so that I won't forget this moment. Honeymelon, I feel so bittersweet right now. Bitter with my upcoming (specifically tomorrow) end-of-semester exam (PSPM). And sweet of James Alexander Malcolm Mackenzie Fraser of a dude.

         People, never in a million years would I ever discover that man in kilt and annoying Scottish accent to be so amazingly charming. Dude, I am drooling for Jamie Fraser right now. Like drooollsssss!!!!!

         I fell so deeply in love with Outlander. And of course, don't forget Claire Randall. She's the protag. But the most important component in these series is the magnificent lad, Jamie. I love just about everything about him. (Though he is NOT perfect.) He is not your normal hero. He's so different. And strong. And kind hearted. And brave. And thoughtful. And super romantic. *sigh*
“There are things that I canna tell you, at least not yet. And I'll ask nothing of ye that ye canna give me. But what I would ask of ye---when you do tell me something, let it be the truth. And I'll promise ye the same. We have nothing now between us, save---respect, perhaps. And I think that respect has maybe room for secrets, but not for lies. Do ye agree?” - Jamie Fraser, Outlander.
“Does it ever stop? The wanting you? Even when I've just left ye. I want you so much my chest feels tight and my fingers ache with wanting to touch ye again.” - Jamie Fraser, Outlander.
          *sigh again*

          Currently, I have read 'till the third book. Canna start the fourth book yet or I will miserably fail my exam. Need to reevaluate my focus. So I think that is all for now. Need to get my beauty sleep back.

          Talk to ye next time. G'night.

Hoping to hear Jamie calling me Sasschenac,

p.s. Don't worry, CG. You're still number one in my heart.

Jamie Fraser. DROOOOOLLLLLL!!!!!